A lil bit of 'I, me, myself' and some lessons I have learnt....

Life has been throwing lot of challenges and also happy somethings at me ever since I came to exist. I guess that is the way the universe connects to a person and sees how good he/she is in getting to reach or achieve their goals. Having born in to a simple and traditional family taught me true values that I still cherish and believe. With dad's transferrable service, we had to shift many schools. I have been to 8 different schools :). Yeah, this was and is one of the ways by which life taught me many lessons. I have had the chance to meet many people and every person - good or bad has helped me shape to be the person I am today.

Why am I prattling all these here?? Well, lessons in life. So here I am going to share some lessons that I learnt through 'my eyes'.

Please note that the lessons and opinions given below are just my thoughts.... its viewing life my way!

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Never be Unfair. 

Well,again this may be a very cliched and old lessons. But this is the first one that comes to my mind as I guess, this is what I learnt from all the hops and jumps I have done. Life is always fun and amusing turn of events, unless it happens to us. People tend to just have a perception and judge every other person based on some very trivial and simple things like, money,status, beauty (skin deep) etc. Having jumped to different schools, my experience has taught me that most students and teachers will give you 'that' treatment and show that attitude. But of course, these change once they understand that 'you' will be a person of 'use' for them. For teachers, it takes some time to get off their favorite student syndrome. Again, I am not blaming the entire clan of teachers and students but most of them have remained so.

There have been instances that as a child, I have felt left out and by the time, I have made some impression amongst the crowd that yeah, this girl is something! I am off... tata bye-bye. Lolz.
But then the maturity level I have today is way ahead from what I was. As a kid, I guess, I was really shaken at times by the blatant unfairness meted out to people( includes me at times). I learnt that I should not be so from these incidents. Of course, there have been many good souls whom i befriended in this journey and have remained and still remain friends for life.

So there ends the first lesson.

Hmm... the journey continues and so does the lessons.... Well, sorry for the very drawling and boring prose. Penning this down even as I am ready to hit the sack!

Take care...

Best,
Meenu

Beautiful quotes...

One of my favourite quotes.... 

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To Laugh often & much
To win the respect of intelligent people & affection of children
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others
To leave the world a bit better - whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition
To know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived
This is to have Succeeded ....
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Have a blessed week ahead. 

The Belief ...

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I may be flawed, with many a dent. 

I may not be just the fair one. 

Nor am i the lovely dame, you may have ,

read in that fairy tale! 

Oh! I am surely not the smarter kind,

Not in math or science.

I sometimes make grave mistakes,

But, never repeat them all over again! 

I am just the usual plain Jane,  

Who is waiting to fly-

Just my way.

I will color my own lovely day.

In red, green and yellow hues. 

I know, I look at everything,

bit different than your way.  

I do want to,

Silence the mocks and the laughs.

I hope to tread my own path.

I hope to break my own silence. 

I realize, I do have the strength, that, 

I know not.

And, I have the vision 

To not get lost.

You can think of me as one in the crowd, 

But, soon you will see me standing out.

Oh, please go ahead! 

Try to break, laugh, and mock at me!

But, just do remember,

You can never break my belief apart.

 Copyright © 2011. All rights reserved - Meenu. 

Agonies of a broken heart...

Photo courtesy- Google images! 

When you lie, 

I hate myself.

When you break my trust, 

I hate myself.

When you talk behind my back,

I hate myself.

When you throw your tantrums,

I hate myself. 

My heart yearns in your thoughts 

For, I can feel the seething pain.

There is fear within,

Haunting nightmares,

Sleepless nights, 

I feel lost and all alone! 

Do you now realize 

how much i love you 

to not hate you? 

The hatred for self-

Breaks my soul,

Much worse than the hurricanes

That shatters homes!

Do you now realize 

how much you mean to me

for, i can just not hate you? 

Neither can I sketch the pangs of my little heart,

nor paint the emotions of that dreaded past.

Those unceasing tears burn my eyes, 

and the throbbing pain irks my forehead

yet, all i can think is just you, my love.  

Do you now realize 

how much i love you 

to not hate you ?

I am still waiting for you to know my beat...

For you to read my thoughts,

For you to see my crying heart,

Veiled behind my dimpled smile!

I hope at least now you envisage,

the agony of my broken heart. 
It still beats your name, 
Loves your thoughts.....


Am longing for you 
to realize how much i love 
to never hate you...

© Meenu -poems 2011

There is a crack in everything .... thats how light gets in!

Its been very long since i posted some scribble, prattle or may be my thoughts on this page... I guess the last post was done about 470 days ago! :D Hmm now its too long to not bother about this page.

What happened to me and why was i out of action for over a year and a half- you may wonder! I must tell you , i have changed a lot! From a single and sweet thing( most would prefer me being called a sweet devil !) , now i am a married - confused (and yet again, those who know me recently would say i am always one )soul ! I am yet to comment if thats a change for the good or the bad! These changes anyways have taught me lot. I now can see the light that shines in me - through the very imperfect cracks i have ! Let me first update you with what i was up to around the same time last year!

My work was really really tight the same time last year , so somehow i didn't update the blog. I had my very first international trip - a trip to Italy! Met a few wonderful people and they are still in touch! Post that i guess the next trip was my new journey as a 'committed' soul.... Yeah, you are right, i got engaged around this time last year with a very handsome, highly intelligent and artistic person . Muahhaahah (Evil laugh:D) Didn't you know the 'opposites attract'! Whatever!

Of course, just because of the attraction, i wouldn't say that the journey between engagement and marriage was really colorful. It was just like any other period. I had my small share of fun (over phone and mails) and also my share of 'big deal' kind of days..

During those periods, i so wanted to pen and prattle my thoughts on this very wall. But somehow even a wink of sleep was tough with work and marriage preps. Then it happened all of a sudden.. I quit my job, sat at home for 2 months ( i wish i could have done that a little earlier probably!) and then was back to yet another adventure, of course, with a different tag- Mrs.....!!!

Now, five months in to the so-called 'blissful' married life, I, Mrs. Meenu Arvind is now in the land of opportunities ( or so was it called) - USA. A lovely place just the way you dreamed of-in between the mountains , with trees all around, row houses that give you a resort kind of feel and yeah, a dream partner who can sing, dance, cook, think and what not!

I sometimes feel i am very lucky to have got a husband who knows or can manage everything under sun! Well, i also get the point there which means, he is unlucky to have me !!! Lolz.. you can't have fair things on all sides. One side suffers so the other rejoices.. the very truth of life..

Now you may wonder, if i am just at home in the US, why the hell didn't i update my blog! Yeah, yeah... i know..i guess you will recall i said i am a 'married yet confused' soul! So how do you expect a confused soul to pen .. Over the past few months, i have tried to realize and learn more about myself than any one or anything else. Lots of times i have lost confidence in myself, felt being left alone.. In fact even worse, the feeling i get is being left all alone in the jungle with just hyenas around! Why hyenas ? Cant it be tigers or lions ?? Well, they do give you much more easier and appealing feel.. hyenas really make you go 'yuck' and at the same time - scary! Well, well.. thats what i was in - that state of mind.

The very charm of marriage, being with your companion or the so-called Mr.Right was there but at the same time there was (may be, still is) this 'identity crisis'! Who am i ??? Huh! Even the saints have not been able to answer that so easily. I know its a very tough task ahead. It may not be that easy to understand( even for me:D). Yeah, i am so lost in thoughts ( just like a saint, you know ;) ) that even what i talk to my parents or in-laws is more carefully worded, which is so so unlike me! I am more cautious about what i say, what i share even tell what i eat! Of course, i don't lie about all these, i just don't touch topics and don't talk much.. Again, having said that i need to tell you about my International Dialing Saga! Having loads of friends around and a compulsive itch to tell them a hi, made me call a lot of friends at a very short span and for longer hours.. you know the case of not having spoken for months ! That backfired -ONLY FOR ME! All my friends who use the system here in the US, enjoy the privilege of calling friends and home for hours together and i have been one of their friends in India a few months ago ! Now when i did the same ( only difference i did it so PDQ- Pretty damn quick) that backfired! Oh yeah, i need to explain what is the backfire- a warning(a stinker, in terms of my husband) from the telephone services asking for a fine if i were to continue my saga the same way.

The identity crisis hasn't been only for me.. even my cooking. I guess being a great cook my husband was trying to just eat the 'crap' i make and just keep quiet.. Thats why at times he so romantically cooks for me :D May be at least then he gets to eat his scrumptious, delicious .. please add all the adjectives for an awesome food :D with so much joy and happiness.

Identity crisis doesn't end there. I am still trying to understand everything around me and within me! I must appreciate the psychologists who try to unravel the human mind. it is so damn interesting, yet crazy and makes you one too(can't you make out how crazy i am at least with this blog?!?!:D).

Missing home and India is a small thing, i sometimes don't really care where i am as long as i can talk to them and be in touch at least via mail.. but the fact that i miss myself is so sickening. I have tried long to again sit and write something and this has taken me this long to even to pen the most simplest stuff- what i have in mind..Yeah, its true that i am having an identity crisis but i can see some light and hence thought its better late than never to get back to my scribbles on this page. I am sure you will pardon the silly scribbles.. more to come :)

I really hope to keep updating you as always.

Btw, i hope you guys are doing good.. :)

Till then cya

TRUST

Yay! Long time again. i guess it has become my habit these days to visit my blog too late and then apologise, promise and yes ofcourse forget !

But this time i hope it is different. I am back to stay. 

Blogging is what i loved and still infact but maintaining this has been lil tedious for me at least , which i think is unpardonable :) 

So what do i prattle, paint or preach today ? well here i am with it ...

Trust  

What do you want to know ?

Is it the ‘whys’ for my ‘no’s’;

All I can do for now is-

To walk the broken path.

In you I trust , with you I walk,

Please don’t break my heart and-

Just walk apart.

Well its not a good one really havent edited nor checked just have poured out all my thoughts ...:)

anyways catch ya guys later...

Happy Night!

TIME TIME AND TIME !!!

Been long since i did pen something . so my thoughts went on to what should i ? 

Lots can be discussed, lots can be shared but then my thoughts dont let any words flow out. But finally after a long wracking of my brains i decided to write about ' being on time at work'. 

Well .. to start with i dont agree with this point . I agree when 'Being on time for appointments'. Else a daily trot to office should be flexi timing . All what should be expected should be getting the job completed before time/ on time. As long as one is able to do that then i dont see any reason why one should be questioned about being on time for Work!!! 

IT companies have that flexibilty. but most other companies dont . Yes  , i do go to office on time and most often i dont ;') i get to finish my work before the deadline (of course with all circumstances within my control) . Luckily for me i have a great boss(es) who dont question me when i am late. i get to office in my usual time :D 

There s a colleague of mine who is also always on time for work - well 'time - his time';). he did have problems with his boss , but yes he could be or can be questioned when he didnt meet his time for appointments like say , meetings, events etc. else he had every right to be at  office at the earliest (;)) and then carry on with his work, which he surely did.

Well ya when i go for a meeting (prior appointed)  , an examination or a class ... well there one needs to be on time...

I dont know how many would agree with me .. but jst penned are my thoughts ! forgive me for any typos or gramos :D ... sleepy ! 

Take care 

Happy Night !

Hi ! 

Back to blogging .. well nothing much to pen though mind is all jam packed :D may be thats why the ink isnt flowing as i wish ....

Share what would  u wanna me pen here .. ll do !:) 

tada

Bye !